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    Yup, for the last three weeks or so, I've been employed as a manual notetaker at the University of Lincoln. ...Bloody hell.

        I can hardly believe I've found a day job which is actually enjoyable and fulfilling. I'd always pictured myself in future years hunched behind the service window at a drive-through somewhere, plotting world domination and hating everything. For a start, I had no work experience (for various reasons) and no clear identifiable skills. The jobcentre was struggling with me, I could tell.
        But if there's one thing I'm good at, it's the whole lecture thing - turn up, take notes, then piss off to the uni canteen for a sandwich. Thanks to the notetaker role I've been assigned, I can do that every day - the only difference is that the notes are more comprehensive, and I don't get to keep them.
        Also, the lectures I'm required to attend are in different subjects, like Law, Business and Criminology. It's rather different from what we covered in my drama degree, but in terms of levels of academia, they're all about the same, and I can mostly keep up. All I struggle with is technical language. (What the hell is an ombudsman anyway? Sounds like a tomato juice brand. Ombudsman's Finest Tomato Juice! 100% organic!)
    
        There are only a few downsides to the job, and I should know better than to complain, but sometimes it's frustrating being so close to the student environment again, yet totally unable to participate. I am no longer one of them. What's more, the students don't talk to me much, if at all, and my support worker status has already come up in seminars when a lecturer's tried to include me in group work. It's also rather a boon that I am so fascinated by the law lectures but can never apply my knowledge in the way these students can. But, again, I'm not complaining. 

        Has anyone noticed that my creative output has ground to a halt, as of late? Well, it has. I haven't had any sort of urge to draw, even though I have lots to do: the OFFS comic, page 2 of Horace, a tattoo commission, two hand-drawn portraits for competition winners on Facebook, a painting for a friend... I haven't done them. 
        And the weird thing is, I don't really want to.

        I'VE LOST MY CREATIVITY!

        How could this have happened? Am I emotionally fatigued from venturing into work every day? Is my hand strained from constant writing? Am I going through some kind of dissociation? (Am considering this more seriously now that I've spent 3+ days in odd, dream-like state). Or am I just turning into a lazy arsehole?
        Well, I'm not about to nag you to nag me to get on with making art, because that's not up to you at all. But I'd like to ask a question, if I may: At what point did you begin to feel obligated to those who support your work?

        (I'm mainly directing this question at artists with a significant following. For the record, I don't flatter myself that I have a fanbase. Anyone who liked my SKUL-MAN comics were fans of the original Skulduggery Pleasant series, not me. Anyone who likes OFFS is either a close friend, or an already well-established artist, apparently sympathetic to one so unpractised and unnoticed in the competitive, stormy aether that is deviantArt. Ahem.)
  • Mood: Dazed
  • Listening to: Calvin Harris - Blame ft. John Newman
  • Watching: Autumn Asphodel videos
  • Eating: Oreos
  • Drinking: Lemonade, mostly
There's a party in my head and everyone's annoying by FervidColt
There's a party in my head and everyone's annoying
So, yes. Not to be taken too seriously, this drawing, but I have noticed some interesting changes in my behaviour recently. All part of becoming an adult, I guess - or maybe I HAD to start being more like Person 2 to get through all those job interviews.

If only I could split myself into two separate personalities, one of us might get some work done on Horace and Oh For F#&%'s Sake. Or, we could start a fight club or something.
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    So... I graduated last Wednesday. Actually, a number of my friends on dA graduated that day as well.

    *cough cough :iconandymir92: :iconchickenandpotato: :iconcharlieanne26: cough sneeze*

    And it's great! Didn't we all do well etc. But now that I no longer have that momentous day to look forward to, I find myself in a state of slight melancholy. In fact, here is what my daily routine has been for the past week:

7:00        Loll around in bed watching Youtube videos
9:00        Realise what time it is; resolve to get up
9:02        Loll around in bed watching Youtube videos
10:12      Get up and make cup of tea and not drink it
11:00      Decide to AT LEAST start Horace page 2
11:20      Go to shop for strawberry laces
11:47      Resolve to do some jobsearching
12:00      Lie on floor of bedroom watching childhood films on Youtube
14:59      Try to save some of the strawberry laces and fail
15:04       Make another round of tea; leave mine to get cold again
15:36       Go on Pottermore, try to get sorted into Hufflepuff and fail
16:13       Find an unpaid London-based publishing internship; add bookmark
18:00       Eat dinner
18:30       Resolve to spend time with family
18:35       Get disgusted with yet another NCIS and go back upstairs
18:37       Loll around in bed watching Youtube videos
21:00       Decide to have early night
21:20       Start a conversation with estranged college friend
23:55       Make excuses and get ready for bed
00:01       Loll around in bed watching Youtuzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

    I know, I know, it's awful. I only hope both my readers are amused by the above and feel slightly better/more productive by comparison. And having a day like the above isn't so bad if it's every once in a while, but ultimately, in my case, the guilt sets in: Why are you sitting around being lazy and feeling sorry for yourself, no job, no rent, don't know you're born, pull your socks up... If only it were enough to get me properly motivated... Lazy, lazy, lazy! Why can't you be more like Robin Williams?
  • Mood: Dazed
  • Listening to: A bit of everything
  • Watching: A bit of everything
  • Eating: Not much
  • Drinking: Not tea
   ♪ Ceeeeeeeeeeeeelebrate good times, come on! ♪ ♫
  • Mood: Triumph
  • Reading: Skulduggery Pleasant: The Dying Of The Light
  • Watching: Coraline
  • Eating: Grapes
    Yup, for the last three weeks or so, I've been employed as a manual notetaker at the University of Lincoln. ...Bloody hell.

        I can hardly believe I've found a day job which is actually enjoyable and fulfilling. I'd always pictured myself in future years hunched behind the service window at a drive-through somewhere, plotting world domination and hating everything. For a start, I had no work experience (for various reasons) and no clear identifiable skills. The jobcentre was struggling with me, I could tell.
        But if there's one thing I'm good at, it's the whole lecture thing - turn up, take notes, then piss off to the uni canteen for a sandwich. Thanks to the notetaker role I've been assigned, I can do that every day - the only difference is that the notes are more comprehensive, and I don't get to keep them.
        Also, the lectures I'm required to attend are in different subjects, like Law, Business and Criminology. It's rather different from what we covered in my drama degree, but in terms of levels of academia, they're all about the same, and I can mostly keep up. All I struggle with is technical language. (What the hell is an ombudsman anyway? Sounds like a tomato juice brand. Ombudsman's Finest Tomato Juice! 100% organic!)
    
        There are only a few downsides to the job, and I should know better than to complain, but sometimes it's frustrating being so close to the student environment again, yet totally unable to participate. I am no longer one of them. What's more, the students don't talk to me much, if at all, and my support worker status has already come up in seminars when a lecturer's tried to include me in group work. It's also rather a boon that I am so fascinated by the law lectures but can never apply my knowledge in the way these students can. But, again, I'm not complaining. 

        Has anyone noticed that my creative output has ground to a halt, as of late? Well, it has. I haven't had any sort of urge to draw, even though I have lots to do: the OFFS comic, page 2 of Horace, a tattoo commission, two hand-drawn portraits for competition winners on Facebook, a painting for a friend... I haven't done them. 
        And the weird thing is, I don't really want to.

        I'VE LOST MY CREATIVITY!

        How could this have happened? Am I emotionally fatigued from venturing into work every day? Is my hand strained from constant writing? Am I going through some kind of dissociation? (Am considering this more seriously now that I've spent 3+ days in odd, dream-like state). Or am I just turning into a lazy arsehole?
        Well, I'm not about to nag you to nag me to get on with making art, because that's not up to you at all. But I'd like to ask a question, if I may: At what point did you begin to feel obligated to those who support your work?

        (I'm mainly directing this question at artists with a significant following. For the record, I don't flatter myself that I have a fanbase. Anyone who liked my SKUL-MAN comics were fans of the original Skulduggery Pleasant series, not me. Anyone who likes OFFS is either a close friend, or an already well-established artist, apparently sympathetic to one so unpractised and unnoticed in the competitive, stormy aether that is deviantArt. Ahem.)
  • Mood: Dazed
  • Listening to: Calvin Harris - Blame ft. John Newman
  • Watching: Autumn Asphodel videos
  • Eating: Oreos
  • Drinking: Lemonade, mostly

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Emily Good
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United Kingdom
Age: 21
Eyes: Brown
Hair: Brown
Occupation: "Freelance illustrator"
Education: University (and I graduate in September! Hurrah!)
Mode of transport: Train/bus
Ambitions: To become a best-selling author/successful cartoonist and illustrator
Prejudices: Refusing to talk to people who are self-proclaimed 'sporty'
Good points: Diplomacy and generosity
Bad points: Reckless impulsiveness, poor organisation and tendency to ruin a night out
Attitude to life: It'll be all right on the night
Favourite foods: It varies
Drinking habits: Occasional
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